The past weeks have been... Tough. Petrifying. Arduous. Enigmatic breakdowns and anxiety attacks beyond anyone’s comprehension. Even mine. Just typing this triggers my tears. Life, it seems, is hell bent on ruining me.

I haven’t seen most of my friends in weeks. Considering how much of a social butterfly I usually am, it took everyone by surprise when I cancelled and reschedule plans. I was always the first to be counted in for gatherings, but now I just want to be away.

I’m going to be okay, I’ll be alright, I’m fine. I just wish somebody other than me can assure me that. I’m facing this on my own. I don’t have anyone by my side. I’m terrified. I feel so, so alone