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I initially considered not announcing this on my blog because he is a rather private person and my family and friends are worried about how everyone would react since I moved on rather quickly after my last break up. But I know people will find out anyway (my ask.fm is already flooded with questions about him lol) and I don't want to hide our relationship so here it is!
All my friends were ecstatic when I broke the news to them; everyone enthusiastically asked me what happened and they were all so caring that I felt like the luckiest girl alive. But I also felt like the meanest girl ever because I was never that excited when my friends tell me about their crushes. :X I'M SORRY I PROMISE I WILL BE A BETTER FRIEND AND LEARN TO BE HAPPY FOR OTHERS.
Okay, back to the topic. I met him last year and all these while we were good friends - if you read my embarrassing blog post some time back you would know about it. I call that blog post embarrassing because that sneaky guy read my post but didn't tell me about it much later -___-
I know I've always said that I don't believe in NS relationships but I'm willing to let my heart take this risk. A lot of people warned me that it's gonna be difficult, that he's not always gonna be here for me when I need him to be, but somehow I just know that everything will be okay. For the first time in my life, I really feel secured - that's all I needed to know that he's worth the risk. This time might be different.
Maybe, just maybe. :)
I initially considered not announcing this on my blog because he is a rather private person and my family and friends are worried about how everyone would react since I moved on rather quickly after my last break up. But I know people will find out anyway (my ask.fm is already flooded with questions about him lol) and I don't want to hide our relationship so here it is!
All my friends were ecstatic when I broke the news to them; everyone enthusiastically asked me what happened and they were all so caring that I felt like the luckiest girl alive. But I also felt like the meanest girl ever because I was never that excited when my friends tell me about their crushes. :X I'M SORRY I PROMISE I WILL BE A BETTER FRIEND AND LEARN TO BE HAPPY FOR OTHERS.
Okay, back to the topic. I met him last year and all these while we were good friends - if you read my embarrassing blog post some time back you would know about it. I call that blog post embarrassing because that sneaky guy read my post but didn't tell me about it much later -___-
I know I've always said that I don't believe in NS relationships but I'm willing to let my heart take this risk. A lot of people warned me that it's gonna be difficult, that he's not always gonna be here for me when I need him to be, but somehow I just know that everything will be okay. For the first time in my life, I really feel secured - that's all I needed to know that he's worth the risk. This time might be different.
Maybe, just maybe. :)
For some weird reasons that I cannot fathom, time passes by too quickly when I'm with you; hours seem like minutes, and minutes seem like seconds. I wish I could stop time and live in that moment forever so that I would never lose sight of your face, the comfort of your touch, or the taste of your kiss.
“Relationships are like glass.
Sometimes it's better to leave them broken
than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.”
than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.”
I chanced upon this really cliché quote and thought of you.
That was what happened to us, wasn't it?
We picked up the pieces and tried to put them together again. And again. And again.
But no matter how hard we tried looking for them, some pieces were still missing.
And even after we resembled them, the cracks were visible.
We tried to hard to fix what we had but we ended up hurting ourselves in the end.
I wish there was a chance to say I'm sorry though.
Because of my stubbornness, I hurt the both of us.
I should have let you go when you tried to walk away the first time.
Maybe I'm scared because you occupy my mind so much there's no space for anything else.
Maybe I'm scared because you mean so much more to me than anyone else.
Maybe I'm scared because I didn't think it was possible to think of someone so much.
Maybe I'm scared because I fell but you might not be ready to catch me.
Maybe I'm scared because I know I love you and love is a strong emotion.
Promise me that
you will not leave
as soon as things
get tough or difficult.
Don't just leave if
I make a mistake.
I can't stand to
see another walk
away like he did.
you will not leave
as soon as things
get tough or difficult.
Don't just leave if
I make a mistake.
I can't stand to
see another walk
away like he did.
A few days ago, I came across a quote that I liked so much, I made a wallpaper with it so that I will be reminded everyday. Coincidentally, this quote is by my all-time favourite author, C.S. Lewis.
To me, love is just like an investment, a very dangerous one. Every tiny bit of you is at stake and love doesn't take anything less than everything. Love means opening your heart to pain and sorrow.
When you allow yourself to fall in love, you are giving someone the perfect opportunity to hurt you, yet you trust that he won't. But the truth is that people hurt people.
You allow him to control your feelings so much that when he's happy,
you're happy too. But when he feels dejected, you are twice as as upset.
You give him your time, which is a portion of your life that you will never get back.
You give him your all, and you can only hope that you trusted the right person.
You put your trust in him in the form of giving them the most precious thing you have - your heart.
You give him a part of yourself that you never give to anyone else, you let him so far in that they can easily damage you or give you everything, and you still think it's worth the risk.
To put it simply, to love is to be stupid.






