Life has been so-so for me . Ups and downs . Tears , laughter , joy , hurt . I don't even know where to begin . I've been going out a lot lately but I still don't have much photos . Reason being , I misplaced my camera D: . Okay . I shall post more when I have the time . Meanwhile , continue clicking on my nuffnang ! xoxo

Here's the thing : I have this problem with guys . I get attached . Really attached . I've had my heart broken more times than I can count ; each time , I swear off dating until someone new and amazing sweeps me off my feet and makes me forget all the hard parts of falling in love . I'm a relationship phoenix ; I crash and burn and then I rise and start again . You . You were by far my most serious boyfriend and I'm exhausted - from crying and trying to figure out what went wrong and how can I possibly fix it . I really thought that we had something special . But the fact that you don't even want to try to stay together shows how little you felt in the end .

Not just saying because I'm a belieber , but awesome song .

I'm so not feeling okay right now ._. . First , I didn't get the subjects I want . Then , I woke up to find everything's just a lie . Still so not over him . After which , my guitar strings have some serious problems , even after I restring them . Lastly , I don't have enough money to buy Justin Bieber's new album , My Worlds Acoustic , which is out today . It's just the starting of the day , yet I'm feeling as if I can't go on anymore :( .

There's a point in my life which , I met this someone whom I sacrificed everything for , fought hard for , loved and cared for , gave in my all . Yet , there was one thing which I forgotten to do , which was to ask him if he wanted me to .

I hope the next time I blog , it'll be with good news . *Winkz .

Stood there and watched you walk away from everything we had . But I still mean every word I said to you . He would try to take away my pain and he just might make me smile but the whole time I'm wishing he was you instead . Oh , I'm holding my breath . Won't see you again , yet something keeps me holding on to nothing .

7.32am : That text message you sent , it tore me apart . I learned from the past , not everything lasts , I understand that now . Everything changed when you walked away .
12:47pm : What do you gain in return by doing all these ? Are you seeking revenge ? Do you want to boast about how your life is so much better without me ? Why are you still talking to me ?

2:52pm : Every word you said to her , I wished I was once in the position she's in now . I would never leave ; I would cherish us .

6:22pm : Maybe I'll survive somehow though I have regrets , maybe I'll learn to forget and just keep moving on . Cause I know , when love is gone you have to be strong yet once touched by pain you're not the same but time can heal your heart again . So I'll let the clouds that bring me down just fade away ...

8:48pm : So I try to smile but after a while but the memories come back . And this time I learned that love can burn . There's no right or wrong , I've got to be strong .


Bbq with Mrzhuo , Mrseah , Weixuan , Belinda , Haslam , Vanessa , Siwen , Jon , Vernon , Tsunhei , Qixiang , Jerald , Dion , Bryan , Raymond , Tzeliang , Riyan , Sundram , and I think a few more people whom I can't remember right now ! Talked crap and camwhore . Watched midnight movie with Vanessa , Siwen , Jon , Vernon , Tsunhei , Qixiang , Jerald , Dion , Bryan and Raymond . Tonning failed but we had lots of fun although the guys were supaaaar noisy :x . And thankyou to Jonngweekiat and Dionangtoonyong for their blankets , if not I would have frozen to death , hehehe .

Some pictures taken during class chalet :D

When someone is some kinda normal friend to you , whatever they do , you can't really be bothered . But things change gradually once that person gets closer to you . Your mind would turn competitive . Jealousy would occur more often . Well , it proves that human beings are selfish . But if your friend feels that way towards you , that isn't a good friend . Because good pals would never try to harm you no matter how jealous they get .

Good afternoon my wonderful readers ! Was hoping to be able to write a nice long post before I leave to send my aunt and uncle to the airport back to NZ and heading down to Downtown East for 2E3'10 class chalet , but it seems that time is trying to play the defiance game with me . Well, so it's pretty obvious that I wouldn't have the time to spare if that's the case ! Don't be disheartened , hehehe . I promise I would blog when I'm back and I'll reply my Formspring questions as soon as possible ! Do be patient :D . Alright , I'd be leaving soon . Till then ! xoxo

Love is a temporary madness . It erupts like an earthquake then subsides .
And when it subsides you have to make a descision . You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it's inconceivable that you should ever part .

Thursday , 4 November 2010 , 7:03:10pm : This world is too superficial . Sometimes , I wonder how hypocritical one soul could get . We have to pretend to like someone just to make life simple , be happy and have to dissemble or true emotions just to spare a thought for those who feel for us .

Friday , 5 November 2010 , 12:22:48am : I actually fell asleep while typing this post . Woke up in tears . Do you have any idea how much I long for your warm embrace once again ? Even if it's just for that one minute , or even , one second ? I tried so hard , after you left , to pick myself up , to pick up the pieces of my heart but I can't . I just can't .

Friday , 5 November 2010 , 12:46:52am : You told me till the end of time , remember ? Sometimes I really wish I could return to my childhood periods . At least , when I fall , the pain is only physical . Now , every pain that I receive when I fall is the pain that's coming from my heart .

To love someone is to understand each other , to laugh together , to smile with yur heart and to trust one another .
One important thing is to let go of each other if you can't do these .