I'm breaking down.
I'm breaking down and I don't know what to do.
I'm breaking down, I don't know what to do and I wished I didn't say anything.
I'm breaking down, I don't know what to do, I wished I didn't say anything and I miss those times.
I'm breaking down, I don't know what to do, I wished I didn't say anything, I miss those times and I wonder if you still care.
I'm breaking down, I don't know what to do, I wished I didn't say anything, I wonder if you still care and I'm stressed up.
I'm breaking down, I don't know what to do, I wished I didn't say anything, I wonder if you still care, I'm stressed up and I'm watching you turn your back.
I'm breaking down, I don't know what to do, I wished I didn't say anything, I wonder if you still care, I'm stressed up, I'm watching you turn your back and tears are rolling down again.

When I walk passed you, I wonder if you still remember I was once the one you said you'd never leave. I wonder if you remember you told me "I won't ever leave you, I swear."

Hi readers (if there's any left), HAHAHA. It has been so long since I last post! I miss ranting my thoughts and troubles here. Which also explains why I hadn't been here for so long. No troubles, no rants = no post! (: Hee. School's reopening this monday and I haven't done any of my homework. Yes, I'm so good at procrastination I can probably teach it. Ugh. Looking at the bright side, at least I've finished doing my SS project. Then again... Xueying was the one who did most of it.

Some pictures taken during the Secondary 3 Adventure Camp:

I've learnt that happiness don't come knocking on yur doorsteps twice so don't take anything for granted. Never look back and regret because regretting is a appaling waste of energy and at one point, and everything I did was excatly everything I wanted to do. Life is still life. It's still tough, complicated, and more than a little messy, with lessons to be learned, mistakes to be made, triumphs and disappointments to be had, and not every day is meant to be a party.

Camp was okay. Ethan's super funny. Gossiped with room mates (Xueying, Zhiyun, Rachel, Minyi and Tingyi) a lot. Cave exploration was fun. I'm tired. Shall end here.

I know you're busy doing all the things you always planned to do but remember, today is also the day that you first held me in your arms.

There's a whole lot of things you can do and do without me. There's a million things I can do and do alone. But the best you can do for yourself is sharing with that someone else. No one wants to be alone. It's the one thing that I know, It wasn't meant to feel like this, not without you. Cos when I look at my life, how the pieces fall into place, it just wouldn't rhyme without you When I see how my path seem to end up before your face, the state of my heart, the place where we are was written in the stars. Don't be afraid, I'll be right by your side, through the laughter and pain together we're bound to fly.

NEX with Besties yesterday shopping for my camera and some camp stuffs. After much consideration, I bought the Samsung ST600. Hope I won't regret! Anyway, I'll be away for overseas camp March from 7th - 11th so I won't be blogging for the time being. Formspring questions will be answered only when I'm back. Take care, everyone! xx

For all of my good intentions , heartfelt every one
I've left so much love unspoken , so much of life I've left undone
I could've made a difference , I just never made the time
Now yesterday's gone forever and today ain't far behind

I'm left wondering what the hell have I done wrong? Is there anything that I could do to make things go back to normal? Could we have a conversation about this? I really do hate myself sometimes for being such an ignorant girl. I have reached the same place that I had been before in 2009, where I just pretend that everything's going my way when it is obviously not. At all. Feeling so incomplete. Am I reaching for nothing, or just to much?

I do apologise for not updating often. It's mainly because I'm running out of photos and I don't wanna have a blog post without photos. It would be so boring, right?! To make up for the lack of blog posts, I actually answered loads of Formspring questions today ^^

Alright, some mini updates about my life. My camera's screen cracked and I have no camera now. the worst thing about this situation? Level camp this Monday and I'm actually looking forward to it. But now that I have no camera, I have no device to capture down memories and my brain can't actually store that much pictures inside. Ugh, I'm really not making any sense ._.! Shall just let the pictures do the talking instead of embarrassing myself with these nonsense.

Sometimes I wonder why do I say certain things to myself and others.
Sometimes I wonder why can't I achieve something even after trying for so hard.
Sometimes I wonder why can't I let go of things that I know I cannot have.
Sometimes I wonder why can't I be like this person or that person.
Sometimes I wonder if I could change myself to be like this/that, would I be much happier?