Every year I become older, and hopefully become a little wiser. I turned legal in 2014 and it's almost as if this was a reason for people to start stepping all over me and pushing me when I'm down. Last year has been relatively blissful for me but this year has been the complete opposite. I learnt so much more about humans this...Read More
"You ripped me into pieces so small I wasn't sure if I still existed." Today, I looked into the mirror and received such a huge shock. I can no longer recognise the girl I see. Instead, I saw someone who permanently has sadness in her eyes. I saw someone with tears welling up in her eyes, looking like she can break down anytime....Read More
When I'm sad, my first reaction is to shut myself down, push people away and keep everything to myself. And the problem never gets solved because I'm too afraid to face it, because I'm a coward. I've been feeling like that a lot lately. So cowardly, so afraid of everything, so paranoid. I don't want to talk to anyone about anything or even...Read More
One thing about putting myself out here online is that people feel like they have the right to insult me and that I should accept those insults gracefully. They tell me I deserve it because I chose this. Imagine yourself walking on the streets one day. Then people start hauling insults at you. "Ugly!" "Fat!" "EW." "Gross!" When you confront them, their reason...Read More
1. All of my sadness root from only three causes. a) my fear of abandonment b) my lack of self-esteem c) my insecurities 2. Therefore, I'm the root of the problems I'm facing now. Here's the thing - I'm always afraid that I'm the cause of all the bad things that ever happen to me or the people around me. And...Read More
You. I dreamt of you again. I felt so utterly disgusted because you left and it should stay that way. Why are you still haunting me every night? My first reaction when I woke up was to text you to tell you that I can't make it that day. That dream was so real, so vivid that I had a hard time trying...Read More
