I'm growing to feel attached towards someone.
To this person I can't even touch.
I'm so afraid of this feeling because it was never reciprocated previously.
I feel nauseated even thinking of it.
Of having to try, try and try, and then failing, and then trying all over again.
Now it is here again. This time I'm still hopeful and excited, but there's a hidden pan of fear.
It's like hugging sunshine. You feel the warmth, but you can't touch it.