I took the wrong bus to school and had to cab to school on the end , LMAO .
Slept like 2hours in class today , LOL :B

Hojinyee , you're still the one I love :(

Gave school a miss today as I was tired D:
Went to meet Xueying , Yingying and Suxian , and went to pool .

I owned everyone in pool today ! \m/ Hohoho .
Happyhappy me {:

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Don't be flattered that he misses you . He should miss you . You’re deeply missable . However , he’s still the same person who just broke yur heart . Remember the only reason he can miss you is because he’s choosing , every day , not to be with you .

I've always wished these (picture above) existed . Not for me , but for the people around me . Many people can't really comprehend my optimism , even I wonder too sometimes . With these pills , I can cure heartaches , loneliness , sadness , anger - all the negative emotions . Then I can be the happy fairy .

It's funny how fairytales never once mentioned the happy fairy .
I mean , they've got the tooth fairy , fairy godmother , sleep fairy , etc .

Or maybe , the happy fairy was just deemed by everyone as absurd and ludicrous that it isn't even worth mentioning . Also maybe to prevent them from deluding little children that pure happiness exists despite all the challenges they would have to go through .

But hey , weren't the tooth fairy and fairy godmother just as ridiculous ? I mean who creates a coach from the pumpkin , a vegetable which I don't really like that much and creating horsemen from rats - that's totally cooler than the mutation that happened in X-Men !

This aside , I still believe that people right now need happiness more than anything else . The happy fairy can take the place of both the tooth fairy and the fairy godmother . For the only reason those two exist , is to make someone happy .

Nonetheless , I can't believe I crapped about something non-existent . But if I could play a role in someone's life , I'd be their happy fairy , even if they are skeptical that I could do a "better" job . You need to believe in me , that's the first step .

Oh please , I don't have those pills .
I need my own happy fairy too , actually . So it's really ironic of me to be saying all these things .

Maybe yur first love is the one that sticks with you because it's the only person who will ever receive all of you . After that , you learn better . But , most of all , no matter what , a piece of you remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved - a piece no future lover could ever get , no matter what . That piece holds innocence , the belief that love really can last forever . It holds friendship and pain , trail and error , the one kiss you'll never forget , & that night under the stars you can never get back . It holds youth & everything you thought love would be , everything that was proven wrong .

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My heart's breaking into little pieces .

I'm tired .
Physically . And emotionally .

Nationalday celebration was (Y)(Y) . Everyone was so high and happy ^^
Cabbed home after school , prepared and met up with Yingying & Xueying at Celeisure .
Our awesome movie day turned into our awesome kbox day ,


Nevertheless , it was still as awesome . :D

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After one week plus , I thought it through and decided to take it slow . Why should I be rushing into anything , not like it's gonna disappear or what , right ? ._. Hmm , don't wanna take risks this time , cause I can't afford and don't wish to . Guess , it's time to take my time off all my retarded worries , fears and whatever I'm currently feeling . Instead of running into something I'm not too sure about , this time I wanna take a walk and take it slow(: Maybe it might not be the right one too .

Vanessa came back today ! And school was aweeeesome :) .

I want to be able to laugh like this everyday (: .

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Only because it's still so raw and real . Soon I'll just be a series of images that sometimes flash through your mind , when you least expect it . And after that , only a few will stay . Then , one . A memory of a memory .

So much of what we do is ephemeral and quickly forgotten , even by ourselves , so it's gratifying to have something you have done linger in people's memories .