I can't believe the lips that spoke words of comfort to ease me in turbulent times is also capable of such lies. Who should I blame for destroying the facade you painstakenly built up?

What do you want me to say?

I'm here, I'm still here.
Here for you, here without you.

If there's one thing Singaporeans agree on unanimously, it's that we love to travel. I spent more than 30 days overseas just this year alone! You can imagine how important a hardy backpack is, especially when I'm travelling alone.


Earlier this year, Gaston Luga sent me their Pråper Black Travel Backpack which I brought to Kaohsiung.


If you don't already know, Gaston Luga is best known for their practical yet fashionable travel backpacks. I mean, this gorgeous bag has a passport slot so you don't have to dig your bag for that small little book. Useful for muddleheads like me.


I was thrilled to learn that Gaston Luga released a white version in time for Christmas (you know, white Christmas and all). Most things I own are in monochrome; there's honestly no better way to complete my backpack collection than to have the same design in different colours.


Unlike Pråper Black, which is a classy maroon intrior, Pråper White's interior is black. Struggling to keep my innate love for all things monochrome incheck!


All Pråper backpacks have a unique four-hook closure for you to adjust the height of your Pråper backpack. As someone petite, I typically use the lowest one. If my brother is using the Pråper, he'll use the second highest hook. When I bring the bag to school or out to shop, I'll use the highest hook to get more space for my nonsense.


I've been using my Pråper backpack almost daily for more than six months now and it has shown no signs of wear and tear yet. Keep in mind thta I abuse my backpack by tossing it everywhere, throw everything from my heavy laptop to all my shopping inside my bag and am generally careless with my belongings.


My only qeulm is that the straps are a little stiff, but I'm sure the bag will be broken in in time to come. The straps are a little too wide for me too but that's because I'm a petite person — it fits the rest of my friends perfectly fine.


I'm planning to go on a solo backpacking trip in Europe next year and my biggest worry, naturally, is bumping into pickpockets. A trip to the police station overseas definitely sounds like the perfect way to ruin my holiday. But my friends who did exchange in Europe commented that Pråper's sturdy material is definitely strong enough to withstand slashing, and its hook closures ensure that thieves don’t easily reach into my backpack. Definitely bringing my Pråper backpack along to Europe now.

I think Gaston Luga bags are a good investment, especially if you're still schooling or travel frequently. I'm so happy with both my travel backpacks from Gaston Luga and I can't wait for Gaston Luga's new releases in the future! ^__^


Everyone residing in non-EU countries enjoy free shipping + immediate 20% tax rebate on any travel backpacks on Gaston Luga. Plus, if you quote 'pekyj15' you get ADDITIONAL 15% OFF!

Shop on Gaston Luga now!

If you've ever searched for the cure for UTI, it's cranberry juice. Cure for bacterial infection? Roselle. Why am I so sure? I have googled these problems a thousands times myself.

Ladies, did you know that 50% of women experience Urinary Tract Infections (UTIs) at least once in our lifetimes? Women are at greater risk of developing UTI due to the structure of our urinary system, which makes it easier for bacteria to reach our bladder. UTI is a pain to deal with — I've never given birth but I read on some forums that the pain of UTI is comparable to childbirth T____T

UTI is usually caused by bacterial infection in the intimate area, and such infections could lead to discomfort and odour in the intimate area, inconveniencing our daily lives. To makes things worse, many women experience more than one infection during our lifetimes because once you've contracted UTI once, you're more prone to contracting it again.

As my bad luck would have it, I've gotten UTI four times. Which makes me highly susceptible to another infection T___T Since my last experience, I took extra precaution to ensure that it doesn't happen again. Drink more water, pee frequently and of course, consuming cranberry juice whenever I can. Although cranberry juice is highly beneficial, they aren't readily available in food courts or restaurants, where I usually settle my meals.


I was obviously elated when Hi-Beau suggested they'll send me their Avalon Femi Care Women’s Intimate Care Enzyme Drink.



The enzyme drink, formulated with natural ingredients, is designed to help support urinary tract health and our intimate area from within.



Hi-Beau sent me two boxes — 20 days worth — of Avalon Femi Care Women’s Intimate Care Enzyme Drink, which I religiously drank for 20 days. During which, I noticed visibly less vaginal discharge, even days leading up to my period. It made me feel cleaner, thus better and more confident about myself as I went about my daily activities.

On top of the benefits to our intimate area shared previously, my complexion also improved as a result of the Roselle Extract and Pomegranate Extract inside Avalon Femi Care Women’s Intimate Care Enzyme Drink.

Roselle firms and lifts skin to inhibit the breaking down of our skin’s precious elastin, and purifies skin by increasing cell turnover, which can also help to control acne breakouts. Pomegranate, on the other hand, has excellent healing properties which fights infection and keeps acne at bay. It also extends the life of the cells involved in the production of collagen and elastin, keeping our skin looking healthy and youthful.

This is why Avalon Femi Care Women’s Intimate Care Enzyme Drink is so powerful as an all-in-one solution for ladies!


One thing I was concerned about was how Avalon Femi Care Women’s Intimate Care Enzyme Drink would taste because I have perculiar tastebuds -___- I hate fruit juices because they taste artificial! To my pleasant surprise, Avalon Femi Care Women’s Intimate Care Enzyme Drink tasted like what I would expect from authentic cranberry juice.

The enzyme drink smells of roselle — one of its main ingredients — and a yummy balance between sweet and sour. Gulping down Avalon Femi Care Women’s Intimate Care Enzyme Drink quickly became one of the things I looked forward to after having a long day. My little perk-me-up that's also beneficial to my body!


I've recently started being health-conscious (feels like this comes with age) so I was glad to learn that Avalon Femi Care Women’s Intimate Care Enzyme Drink does not contain any additives such as hormones, and Hi-Beau prides it in being both safe and effective.


Avalon Femi Care Women’s Intimate Care Enzyme Drink is made of au-natural ingredients:

• Roselle Extract: helps prevent foul smell caused by odour causing bacterial growth
• Cranberry Extract: helps support urinary tract health & prevent urinary tract infections
• Pomegranate Extract: provides antioxidant support
• Fruits and Vegetables Enzymes: boosts efficacy, with nutrients absorption enhanced

If you girls don't know, other than UTI, women are also prone to bacterial growth in the intimate area. In fact, bacterial vaginosis is the most common vaginal infection among 15 to 44-year-olds. Prevention is always better than cure; any women can, and should, regularly take the enzyme drink.

This applies especially to women who already experienced UTI or ‘abnormal’ vaginal discharge previously because Avalon Femi Care Women’s Intimate Care Enzyme Drink can help improve intimate area issues.

Purchase Avalon Femi Care Women’s Intimate Care Enzyme Drink on Hi-Beau's website, Hi-Beau's Qoo10 page or selected Watsons stores!

P.S. Hi-Beau will be running 12.12 promotions on Qoo10 very soon, including an exclusive giveaway for customers who purchase 2 boxes of Avalon Femi Care and above starting from 9 December 2017, 00:00.

Do I mourn for our bittersweet memories for the sole purpose of finding something to feel sad about because I don't feel like I deserve happiness?

What an emotionally demanding and gruelling year it has been...

When you get stabbed in the same spot before your wounds even heal.
Thank you. How'd you expect me to ever love again?

猜不透 你最近时好时坏 的沉默
我也不想去追问 太多
让试探为彼此的心 上了锁

猜不透 相处会比分开 还寂寞
两个人都只是得过 且过
无法感受每次触摸 是真的 是热的

如果 忽远忽近的洒脱 是你要的自由
那我 宁愿回到一个人生活
如果 忽冷忽热的温柔 是你的借口
那我 宁愿对你从没 认真过

到底 这感觉谁对谁错 我已不想追究
越是 在乎的人越是 猜不透

我的伤，我的痛
我不求你的领会
你也永远不谅解

have you ever hated mirrors because they reflected your existence? it's easy to pick out flaws when you look at something long enough. i know that, because i felt compelled to point mine out every time i see myself. i'm aware of the location of each flaw in every inch of my body.

the confidence i possessed vapourised, my good days too fleeting. and on normal days like today, i wake up filled with disgust at myself. i don't put on make up because i can't stand looking in the mirror. the moment i do, i start sobbing uncontrollably.

i don't want to be left alone. the voices charge at me when i'm alone. i've never been good at dealing with failures, much less resisting the deafening, pernicious whispers. they are reiterating, "you'll never be good enough." i'm on the verge of losing it, my world is crumbling.

i'm drowning i'm not going to be ok
please save me please stay please

i'm gonna cry

just how hard is it to...

When you're young you don't worry about anything before jumping into a relationship. Love was simple and pure back then; you like someone, you get together if the feeling is mutual. When you're young you just love.

There's never a love quite like your first. You're reckless with your heart because you have a lot to give. You didn't know that someday, you'll run out of love and start doubting everyone's intentions because it's part of growing up. Once you've been broken and shattered, you lose that innocent part of you and hard as you try, you can't possibly piece it back.

As an adult, it seems, relationships are built on several factors. Whether you share the same family background, cultural background, religious beliefs, his short term and long term plans for his future. You watch his habits, whether you can accept it if they're a little quirky. You learn about his past, whether it's something you can live with. You bring him to meet your family and friends because you know now that relationships don't revolve around just two people.

Ironically, none of it is love. Nowadays, you can even be in a relationship without love because we are creatures of habits and sometimes it's just easier staying in a loveless relationship than to go out, look for someone new and risk getting hurt again.

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Wrote the above some years back, about a relationship I was afraid to get out of because I didn't want the trouble of starting anew and getting to know someone all over again. My friend sharing her boyfriend troubles last week reminded me of how relevant this still is.



分开以后的痛苦 并不是怕不幸福
只是两个人太久 我不习惯孤独

躲在回忆的仓库 快乐的屈指可数
也怕自己走不出给自己的埋伏