The opposite of light is not darkness, the opposite of love is not hatred. In fact, I would even compare love to hatred — they are both intense feelings towards someone and they can fill you up, for the better or worse.
Just like how darkness is just the absence of light, the opposite of love, I came to realise, is indifference. The absence of all feelings.
Just like how darkness is just the absence of light, the opposite of love, I came to realise, is indifference. The absence of all feelings.
The notion of ever being "not good enough" tears me up in the most violent way possible yet breaks down my existence in a manner so gentle, so gradual nobody would have noticed.
The days leading to my term break saw me in a befuddled state, stifling, on the verge tears. I was constantly stressed out. I didn't reply my friends for days because I couldn't stand picking up my phone. Going online meant facing a deluge of work/school-related messages I wasn't prepared to answer.
My body showed signs of decrepitude and I went around looking gaunt daily. I grimaced at the thought of work. I was burnt out, my mind insolently blank.
Yet, instead of taking the pieces of advice to take a pause, I stubbornly took on even more jobs. I thought by keeping myself busy, I could numb the pain. Fighting fire with fire? Maybe.
The recent occurrences, the multitudinous challenges, forced me to believe that life just has an unhealthy obsession with ruining me. Tearing me down. Breaking me apart. It's been months of trying to put my life together. I'm contented but, as like poles repel each other, triumph still eludes me every time.
Beset with an avalanche of self-doubts, I catch myself neurotically wondering, too many times, when will I succeed — if ever.
The days leading to my term break saw me in a befuddled state, stifling, on the verge tears. I was constantly stressed out. I didn't reply my friends for days because I couldn't stand picking up my phone. Going online meant facing a deluge of work/school-related messages I wasn't prepared to answer.
My body showed signs of decrepitude and I went around looking gaunt daily. I grimaced at the thought of work. I was burnt out, my mind insolently blank.
"You're doing well. You need to stop being so hard on yourself"
Yet, instead of taking the pieces of advice to take a pause, I stubbornly took on even more jobs. I thought by keeping myself busy, I could numb the pain. Fighting fire with fire? Maybe.
The recent occurrences, the multitudinous challenges, forced me to believe that life just has an unhealthy obsession with ruining me. Tearing me down. Breaking me apart. It's been months of trying to put my life together. I'm contented but, as like poles repel each other, triumph still eludes me every time.
Beset with an avalanche of self-doubts, I catch myself neurotically wondering, too many times, when will I succeed — if ever.
谁能体谅我有雨天
偶尔胆怯谁会了解
millennial poetry —
erratic line breaks
between words in a
sentence
erratic line breaks
between words in a
sentence
//
arbitrary usage of
punctuation
expedient cries of
heartbreaks
//
throw in some
wanderlust
we found a recipe
hello publisher
The past weeks have been... Tough. Petrifying. Arduous. Enigmatic breakdowns and anxiety attacks beyond anyone’s comprehension. Even mine. Just typing this triggers my tears. Life, it seems, is hell bent on ruining me.
I haven’t seen most of my friends in weeks. Considering how much of a social butterfly I usually am, it took everyone by surprise when I cancelled and reschedule plans. I was always the first to be counted in for gatherings, but now I just want to be away.
I’m going to be okay, I’ll be alright, I’m fine. I just wish somebody other than me can assure me that. I’m facing this on my own. I don’t have anyone by my side. I’m terrified. I feel so, so alone
I haven’t seen most of my friends in weeks. Considering how much of a social butterfly I usually am, it took everyone by surprise when I cancelled and reschedule plans. I was always the first to be counted in for gatherings, but now I just want to be away.
I’m going to be okay, I’ll be alright, I’m fine. I just wish somebody other than me can assure me that. I’m facing this on my own. I don’t have anyone by my side. I’m terrified. I feel so, so alone
Travelling Around Taiwan (11D10N Itinerary — Taipei, Hualien, Taitung, Tainan, Taichung)
Budget Travels October 21, 2017
Taiwan — my first business trip, my place of growth and healing, the perfect ending to my gap year. I initially wanted to stay in Taipei for a few days before travelling to Hokkaido but as luck would have it, all the cheap flights were quickly snapped up. Unwilling to pay more, I decided to stay and travel around Taiwan for 11 days, exploring the other counties that I've never set foot in, mainly Hualien, Taitung, Tainan and Taichung. Here's a brief itinerary of how I spent my time in Taiwan this summer!
I spent the bulk of my time in Taipei, and met up with my Taiwanese friends since I was starting school soon and wouldn't be travelling to Taiwan anymore for the next two years. Because of this, I had a good mixture of touristy stuff and local hunts in my itinerary, which I really liked since I got to see two sides of Taiwan. I also slowed down my itinerary since it was my upteempth time in Taiwan and I wanted to travel at a relaxing pace instead of rushing to places.
I found Free & Slow Hostel at the very last minute — before leaving for Hualien — and made my booking right away because of the hostel's unique concept. I mean, Free & Slow Hostel allows you to go camping on a trip in an air-conditioned room? Yes, please! To make things better, Free & Slow Hostel is just five to ten minutes away from Hualien Railway Station, where you alight after taking the train from or to Taipei.
