Every year I become older, and hopefully become a little wiser. I turned legal in 2014 and it's almost as if this was a reason for people to start stepping all over me and pushing me when I'm down. Last year has been relatively blissful for me but this year has been the complete opposite. I learnt so much more about humans this...Read More

 "You ripped me into pieces so small I wasn't sure if I still existed." Today, I looked into the mirror and received such a huge shock. I can no longer recognise the girl I see. Instead, I saw someone who permanently has sadness in her eyes. I saw someone with tears welling up in her eyes, looking like she can break down anytime....Read More

When I'm sad, my first reaction is to shut myself down, push people away and keep everything to myself. And the problem never gets solved because I'm too afraid to face it, because I'm a coward. I've been feeling like that a lot lately. So cowardly, so afraid of everything, so paranoid. I don't want to talk to anyone about anything or even...Read More

One thing about putting myself out here online is that people feel like they have the right to insult me and that I should accept those insults gracefully. They tell me I deserve it because I chose this. Imagine yourself walking on the streets one day. Then people start hauling insults at you. "Ugly!" "Fat!" "EW." "Gross!" When you confront them, their reason...Read More

1. All of my sadness root from only three causes.      a) my fear of abandonment      b) my lack of self-esteem      c) my insecurities 2. Therefore, I'm the root of the problems I'm facing now.  Here's the thing - I'm always afraid that I'm the cause of all the bad things that ever happen to me or the people around me. And...Read More

You. I dreamt of you again. I felt so utterly disgusted because you left and it should stay that way. Why are you still haunting me every night? My first reaction when I woke up was to text you to tell you that I can't make it that day. That dream was so real, so vivid that I had a hard time trying...Read More

To my future self, I don't know how old you'll be when you stumble upon this post but I hope you're finally happy. By happy I don't mean the temporary happiness you show just so your friends won't worry or the high you get when you build your happiness upon the people around you and they do something that pleases you. I really...Read More

Call me slow but I just found out about the recent PSLE results release. Six years ago, I received my PSLE results in my school hall. I remember crying badly, sobbing my hearts out. I remember the whole school hall staring at me because most of my peers did well. I, on the other hand, did so much worse than expected that I...Read More

"And I haven't seen you so sad and depressed in a long while." I ponder upon these words for the rest of the day. She said the words I've been wanting to say but could never find. She has been doing that for the past few days. Every single damn word that I could never speak, she spoke it for me. Yes, I...Read More

Spending my Saturday the way I like it - lazing around, chilling away from my phone and thinking about things. It occurred to me that I think of the past a lot more than I should; I find myself reminiscing and smiling to myself a lot. That shouldn't be a problem, right? But I end up being sad about it because I know...Read More

One of those days when I don't feel good again. It has happened so often recently and I've been getting irritated over the littlest things lately :/ I've been feeling so inadequate and then I make things worse for myself by stalking pretty girls and feeling even more insecure ugh sometimes I think I deserve it? Wtf. Today something happened that made me...Read More

It still bothers me to this date because the change was so sudden and we never talked about it. I've always been one to speak my thoughts but when it comes to you... I kept my mouth shut. I cared too much about what you thought or felt. I cared too much and told myself to be happy with what I had. I...Read More

A whirlwind of thoughts flooding my mind right now and I'm not sure if I can accurately put my thoughts into words. Maybe I haven't felt the dread because I've been so busy with everything else, or maybe I kept myself busy so I wouldn't have to face that sinking feeling. I prepped myself for the day but it still didn't felt right...Read More

Every couple has a honeymoon period that they go through. When days feel like hours, hours feel like minutes and minutes pass by like seconds. When you stick to each other like magnets, eager to learn more about your other half. But this doesn't last forever. Reality will set in, you will get busy with other things, you will eventually stop wanting to...Read More

If you ever used GrabTaxi or other taxi apps in Singapore, you would know how frustrating it is, especially during the peak hour. Not only that, on top of the forever rising cab fares, you still have to pay for the on-call fee. (This is NOT an ad)   What a serious pain in the ass. But you don't have to worry about...Read More

Who's up for some weekend drama? So I started socialising a little more because I decided i need to at least try to stop being so introverted since my internship is starting soon and I'll need to mix around then anyway. My first attempt already didn't go so well. I attended an event with one poly friend, my secondary school friend (I'll call...Read More

Another night when I have too much on my mind and I just wish to type. I've been thinking a lot lately and I realised I've been behaving so much like a coward. It's time I step up and ask for the answers to my questions instead of guessing all the time. I'm such an expressive person yet at the same time, I...Read More

Feeling so happy today!!! I guess I don't really feel happy a lot, especially at night because I think too much and cause myself to get unhappy but today is one of the rare nights :)) Majority of it is probably because I went to USS today with my brother! I got him the season pass which burned a hole in my pocket...Read More