I haven't blog in a blog time. Well, the main reason is that I don't really have anything to talk about. Been going back to school for remedial lessons. Yes, lessons during the holidays.


I didn't think it was really beneficial because throughout the lessons I was like,



And when the teacher asked "Do you understand?", outside, I'll be


But inside I'm like

"What is this crap?"

And then I'll try to concentrate for a while but after 5 mins,


When the clock strikes one, I'll all

"IT'S FINALLY OVERRRRRRRR!"

So yeah. You guys get my point. I have really short attention span and I can't focus well in class. So I guess when I get back my results for the re-test, I'll feel like this again



Then I'll promise myself again and again I won't be distracted anymore. But history repeats itself. Studies aside, bby has been bringing me to school everyday.

But he's off to CCA camp from Monday - Wednesday.

So I went to school by myself for two days.

But guess what? Today is Wednesday! Which means it's the last day of bby's camp!


Anyway, if you guys realize, this post is different from my usual wordy-and-no-pictures post. So which kind of posts do you guys prefer? Tell me on my formspring!

There's a difference between being cocky and being confidence. Being cocky is knowing or thinking that you're the shit, that you look good and you use that to your advantage. People can see cockiness, and its usually very ugly. Being confident is knowing yourself inside and out yet not caring what other people may think or say. Being confident doesn't come from being right, but from not afraid of being wrong. People see confidence, and its a beautiful thing.

I become creative whenever I'm sad. Recently, I feel creativity all over me. Just lying on the bed last night, I hear poems and artistic expressions running through my mind. Images pop up to complement those words. I could feel and hear my heart beating. It was beautiful. Just like we used to be. I want to get better.

Friendship means understanding, not agreement. It means forgiveness, not forgetting. It means the memories last, even if contact is lost.

Hello everyone! Surprised to see a new entry? I know I said I would not blog till after my mid-year examinations but I wanted to feature my mom since mother's day is coming!


To my dearest mommy (I know you do read my blog sometimes!),

Nobody likes the attention to be shared. No one likes to be left out. No one likes the feeling of being alone. And no one likes it when every body's laughing without you, whispering in each others ears and you're totally ignorant of what's going on, going on a date without you.

I'm back suckers! Wasn't feeling kinda great in terms of my mood over the past few days because of some stupid matters. I need to stop being like that. Paranoid. Or else, I'm seriously gonna go crazy someday. I need to learn how to trust, believe and have faith in the people around me. Also, learn how to say and do. The problem with me is that I always do empty talks and never take action, so I'm so gonna apply 'say and do' in my life.

Perhaps today may be the last time I'd be posting, or else on Sunday or Monday, if I'm able to. As for the rest of next week till 20th of May, I'll be standing down from my blog I guess. In other words, I'll only blog after my last paper. Miss me, miss my post. Hehe, since it might be the last post. Let me make this post more presentable aye. Did my NAPFA five stations on Monday and I re-ran my 2.4km run on Wednesday as I was not satisfied with my last timing. Well, I'm happy with my NAPFA results now and I managed to secure a gold. Had a quarrel with baby and I'm really glad that we're okay again.

Did alot of thinking during our cold war. I've learnt that everything is impermanent. As much as we are loving or hating the people around us or situations we're in right now, things are going to change, feelings won't always be the same. Situations evolve over time. Beautiful people won't always be beautiful. Flowers bloom, but they wither as well. In other words, nothing lasts forever. So why bother clinging on so tightly to the good things that are no longer around us? Why not just let things be? That's what you always say. After all, nothing lasts forever, right? While I most certainly agree with such a belief because clinging on certainly doesn't help in the recovery process when you lose someone/ something. I'm confused at the same time. Say for example, in a relationship, two people are drifting apart because they aren't able to interact as much as they used to. Using the impermanence theory, the natural reaction would be: Oh well, since nothing lasts forever, feelings are bound to evolve over time. I can't keep the other party anyway. Might as well live and let live. Give up and move on. It makes me feel better yea. I don't see any sign of motivation in it at all. That man/woman who is having such thoughts simply wouldn't be compelled to do his best in the relationship and in pursuing his/her partner. Even though love still exists between them, he is willing to let go of his companion simply because things are impermanent? There's a lack of "trying" here I feel.

Just because some things are impermanent, doesn't mean that you shouldn't try your best to achieve it. Just because we all grow old one day and that physical attractiveness doesn't last forever, doesn't mean that we shouldn't strive hard to look clean and presentable everyday, right? Just because I will die eventually, doesn't mean that I have to stop living now. I will live, and I will live life to the fullest until the day my body doesn't allow me to do so. That, guys, is what I think impermanence means. To do everything at our fullest maximum capacity. And until we've done our best, should we submit to the idea that things are impermanent as they are.

Just a year ago till now. Best friends turn into strangers, friends become enemies, close guy friends become your biggest crush, the innocent ones become whores, most liked become hated, and none of us thought it would turn out like this. I know I didn't.

All it takes is time. When someone says "I'll never ever be able to get over him/her," that is absolutely false. In time, you will learn to let go and move on. Accept whatever happened to you, take it as a positive experience, and use it to start a new chapter in life. That's part of transition. Don't ever say you can't or never will because that just means you're not even trying. A new beginning will unfold and some of the greatest happenings in life will result from big changes like this. So stop sulking over what can't be changed or dwell on the past because that will only hold you back. Take a deep breath, say goodbye to history, and move on forward. That's the secret to happiness. What is wrong will be right. What is pain will be joy. What is sick will be healthy. What is rough will be smooth. And what is lost will be found. All you need is time.

After walking through the downs in my life for the past few months , I'm finally getting better and stronger(: You can call it a leap of faith, because I chose to believe in myself and set my mind to face whatever circumstances that occurred in my life. Even though the past few months were ominous and torturous, but I kinda walked through it with optimism - thanks to the people around me. I must say I really have wonderful people leading me in my life, guiding me and leading me in life, teaching me moral values and help me get through every obstacle I met. Thanks people, I wouldn't have made it without all of you.

The past fourteen days were nothing awesome nor amazing to keep me occupied by reminiscing about it over and over again. Went to Jalan Kayu to eat Prata with besties after school last Tuesday. Had so much fun posting for crazy photos that we were caught in the heavy rain. Fortunately, baby's unbrella was with me. And unfortunately, we only had two unbrellas between the five of us. We ended up wet all over and looking like mad women. That's the only thing that's fresh in my memory right now. Other than that, I watched Never Say Never 3D with baby yesterday. And he kept pestering me to purchase the tickets as he didn't want the cashier to think that he's gay. That look on his face when he bought the tickets was... Priceless. HAHAHA. In my perspective, I always feel speechless when it comes to giving a review on that movie. Indubitably, it was the best movie I have ever seen, the moral was there and I could feel inspirations that sorta brightened up some pessimistic thoughts that I had in mind. I really love all the videos of Justin's childhood. Anyway, after the movie, baby sent me to bus stop and we headed home. That's the only two major things that happened in this fortnight.

It has been a long time since I sat down and blog like this. Had been real busy with school. I'll be back real soon!