People spend so much of their lives trying to figure out what love is. All the books, songs and movies written about love... But nothing else compares to what you personally feel. I like to think of love as some sort of blanket, kind of like a blanket of security. That when you're in it, you feel warmth, comfort and in that moment,...Read More

I promise you this picture is related to my blog post. With almost a month since my last post, this might just be the longest break I've ever taken from blogging. I'll explain why in a bit but stick with me while I reminisce the good times. It's been more than ten years since that day I stumbled upon blogger through a Yahoo...Read More

Sure, I love being paid to do what I did for free in school and the fact that I'm being paid to do what I enjoy doing is great but more specifically, I love talking to the stewardesses and stewards from my internship place because they always have such interesting travel stories to share! (｡◕‿◕｡) Since I don't have the financial capabilities to...Read More

I disconnect myself from reality, I told myself to stop expecting. When you're nice to me, I keep reminding myself that you are not the same person I fell in love with. I always told myself to not have any expectations anymore because I know you cannot fulfill them. Sometimes I put on an act so well that I fool even myself. Hmmm,...Read More

I feel disgusted. A few months ago, I thought I have finally recovered from this illness that has haunted me since I was 13 but as I started putting on weight, it happened again. I can't stop weighing myself, I can't put down that measuring tape. I spend my free time looking at myself in the mirror and criticizing every flaw I could...Read More

[ad] Last week, McDonald's invited me and a guest down to try out their newest burger - the all new GOLDEN Samurai burger! I picked Wanyi, who shared with me her inspiring inner samurai story. Samurai values include respect, courage, honesty, compassion, honour and/or loyalty. As for me, my inner samurai story was when I decided to do what none of my peers...Read More

People always say that as you grow older, you learn who your true friends are. However, I feel like it's the opposite for me. The older I am, the harder it is for me to differentiate who wants to be here for me and who only wants a part of me. What is it about me that allows people to leave so easily?...Read More

I have to admit that things are getting hard. I can't get you out of my mind but I can't go back to the past. Something is absent from my life. Moving about daily feel like chores to me; even breathing feels difficult at times. Why does everything reminds me of you...? I do nothing but mope around all day. I feel myself...Read More

Wrote this awhile back. - I didn't want to fall back into the game of love; it's too complicated and it's not for me. At least not yet. But you came along with your stupid jokes and I can't stop laughing when I'm with you. I find myself sounding like a teenage girl again, giggling at everything you said. You provided me with...Read More

My biggest regret was thinking that you would be different. That you would take time to care for me. That you would love me and treat me right. That you would not do what they did to me. That you would talk to me to understand me. I willingly gave you my heart and trusted you with it. I thought this could be...Read More

I stopped talking to you because you stopped listening. It's as simple as this. A long time ago, we used to be able to talk things out because we both listened and tried to change for the better. For you, for me, for us. But today, it's no longer like this between us. This feeling is unexplainable... I don't know which is worse,...Read More

After a while, you give up. You give up explaining because it takes longer than a lifetime to explain something to someone with the stubbornness of a mule. Why waste your saliva and life? No matter what you say, nothing will go through his thick skulls. To him, he's always right. And when he's wrong, don't expect him to apologise - he never...Read More

I'm trying to reduce angsty rants on my blog because they do no good to this blog or my life but I'm damn pissed off today. I'm so annoyed that all the travel opportunities in the recent years never materialised. Maybe I sound petty now but if you've been reading my blog for quite some time, you would know how much I love...Read More

giant creatures flew across the gray sky their hide made of stone and they had diamond eyes beasts crawl out of their cave after hiding for a millennium with their skin intricate like a maze they tore and scratched yet with light came the dark and he left his evil scars a blood-curdling scream makes its way out of her tired throat before...Read More

i was 7 – pigtails, porcelain skin missing two front teeth running wild, screaming loud mirror mirror, am i pretty? i was 10 – bobby pins, messy hair crooked teeth, bright smile beaming wide, holding in mirror mirror, am i pretty enough? i was 14 – rebellious dyed hair brace face, black lipstick mascara running down my cheeks mirror mirror, am i pretty...Read More

Just submitted 10 poems for my Creative Writing module's final assignments and I'm finally done with my final in-school semester! Well, I still have two more exams to go but I'm back here! Hopefully I'll be more active in the weeks to come but here's a mini update because I feel so guilty that I haven't been updating or replying to comments ugh....Read More

Spending the last few days alone made me realised four things. My perception can change everything  It's normal to fall into a slump sometimes but what's important is I snap myself out of it. For the past few days, I didn't let myself listen to the songs that would affect me and if I accidentally played them, I refused to succumb to my...Read More

Hell month is here again with the endless submissions, tests, presentations whatsoever. As usual, when it comes to me, bad things don't just happen once in a while - they hit me like a wrecking ball all at once. It seems like everyday, someone just has to ruin life for me. I dread waking up every morning because I don't know what's going to hit...Read More

Dear you, I'm sorry I'm so clingy. I wish I don't have to apologise or explain myself yet at the same time I feel the need to. Perhaps it's because I'm afraid of annoying you or the fact that I know you won't try to understand. Introversion is something I need to grow out of, social anxiety means I'm being a pussy. Well,...Read More

Sorry for this crappy post (probably crappy grammar too) but I'm worn out and exhausted. I'm sick of trying to hold back my tears or sobbing silently. It's near to 4am now and I have a test at 9am, another test tomorrow at 2pm, yet another test and a fiction story due on Wednesday then finally, a critique due on Friday but I...Read More

(Ad) - Read on because I have a special discount code specially for you readers, courtesy of Panasonic Singapore and Omy! Let me tell you a secret about me that I'm quite ashamed of. If you know me personally, I'm a very lazy girl and since puberty ended (goodbye daily acne break outs!) I usually only wash my face with water... Or facial...Read More

Where do you see yourself ten years from now? This is a very common question but it freaks me out endlessly. At 19, I feel like I'm neither an adult nor a teen. I just passed my last teen birthday but we are only considered adults at 21. So what happens when you're 20? To me, 20 will be the age of discovery....Read More

Because who doesn't love the Internet right?  And I've been so addicted to Internet shopping recently!!! I can't find the time for a much-needed physical retail therapy since I've been so busy with school so I’ve been scrolling through online stores so much. Honestly, I have absolutely no idea what am I wearing half the time because school has been so hectic nobody...Read More

Cried till I have nothing left, sobbed till I lost my voice but I still woke up with an aching heart. To say I'm disappointed would be a severe understatement. If God exist, he must be a sadist laughing so hard at me right now because my life is a series of jokes. Treated myself to an expensive but cute-looking luggage because I...Read More

I was excited about this new phase of my life. "If you don't like something about yourself, then fix it," I'd tell myself daily. So I began fixing myself. I changed everything about me that I didn't like in hopes of finding a more confident self. But one day I met someone who put things into perception for me. "Why do you have...Read More

Disgusting. I call your behaviour utterly repulsive and distasteful. Your words were so venomous I felt nauseous when I first heard them. I wouldn't lie - I was livid. I couldn't believe you could bring yourself to even mutter those words. But I didn't say anything to defend myself. I didn't want you to have the satisfaction of knowing that your words affected...Read More

School has been a nothing but a frantic rush for me in my third and final year of Mass Communication and much as I hate to say it, this blog might have to take a pause for now. It's not to say that I've lost my passion for writing (or ranting), it's just that I can no longer find it in me to...Read More

One day, You will see him down the streets And you will look into his eyes Only to recognise The one started a fire in you The one who opened your eyes The one you promised forever to The one whom you thought was "The One" That same person Was the one who left you in Such a cruel fashion You could never...Read More

Everyone told me secondary school was going to be the best years of my life, I scoffed and thought, "if these were the best years, I'd hate to think what's gonna happen the rest of my life." But they were right - indeed, those were the best four years of my life thus far.  Just like any human being, I made mistakes. I made...Read More