I haven't felt such intense hatred in a long while. A feeling so strong it leaves a tinge of pain whenever I think about it. Something I so desperately want to forget yet it comes haunting me every single damn day.

I'm trying so hard to pull myself together, to get my shit together, to stop disappointing the people who love and believe in me but it's so difficult. it's so difficult I want to just give it all up right now.

Today I learn that not everyone you lose is a loss. taking things one step at a time but one thing's for sure - I'm moving forward and never looking back now